I realize that i can’t be like this anymore.
I try to get you out of my mind by thinking about bad things you have done to me or may have done to me, because i am not sure about it. It is all just my speculation over you. It can be true, it can be wrong. Some can be true, some can be wrong. I don’t know.
I realize i have to stop being like this.
It is tiring.
I have to put my trust just on Him.
I have to put my expectation just on Him.
That’s the only way to safe my heart from hurt and disappointment.